I'm a college graduate and I'm sellin cars.
Yup, my first job out of school is selling Mitsubishi's.
Today was my day of training, and, I think this is my kind of place.
It made me realize that the competitiveness has been out of my life for almost 5 years now.
Plus, it's cut-throat.
You have to be nice to the people that you work with (in my case this is no problem cause they are all under 24, and alcoholics), but you know that every car sold out of the lot is making someone at least $200, and you want that to be you.
i think... that I will be very good at this.
I am a salesman at heart.
Then, when you tell me that I make 20-25% of every dollar over then bottom sale price, you've got my attention. That means that if I sell a used car for 2 grand over the dealer price that I get $500. Damn.
Well, i can't wait till Christmas.

posted by John @ 10:25 PM

 
Even though I got ditched, I still went out last night.
It's bad when you need a reason to go out. Especially when its a reason you don't care about. It was one of my friends friends last night in town, so I went out to celebrate. I didn't talk to the guy, but I was there.

Anyway. There was a monumental change last night, I think.

I ran into an old friend and current enemy. I approached the fuck at the bar, asked what the fuck was up, and he started being all nice to me. What the fuck. Here I am ready to beat some ass and I end up easily squashing 2 years worth of conflict over one beer.
We both expressed how much we wanted to beat eachothers ass, then caught up on what eachother was up to, and decided to fuck the dumb shit and move on.
Not exactly how I was planning on it to come to an end. I still have some hard feelings on the topic, but, I'm getting to old for petty drug dealer problems.

But the good news is that ends that. All that.


posted by John @ 12:18 PM

 
Every man needs a dog.

I believe this to be true, so I got one. Had planned on getting one closer to the end of summer. But with Christies daily persistence, and me wanting sometime soon attitude equaled to us getting a dog last Sunday.

He's been perfect so far. Oh, it's a German Shepherd. It's 8 weeks old, and his name is Rocky Balboa.
I think we also decided to get a dog cause we need something to do. There comes a point in a relationship when you need something to work on to together. Cats aren't the answer for this. But a dog is perfect. It's kinda like having an easy practice baby. Cause you can ignore them if you want sometimes.

Yea, having a struggle between getting a 9-5er or just have a good time this summer. Everyone's told me to just have a good time, mainly because of how my last summer went. I was made an offer to work 20-30 hrs. a week at Cingular wireless. That plus Pizza King would make good money, but not good enough.

Hmm, either way it will be better than last summer.

posted by John @ 10:50 AM

 
"The Best things in Life are Free."

Something we've always heard.

It is completely wrong. And right.

"Free" has so many meanings when compared to life. Finding the Love of your life is free. Getting out of the hold of the law after 2+ years is free. Knowing your convictions is freedom.

You can't look down.
I was told tonight that I am almost "annoyingly optimistic"???? I am, and I know it. But was told after that that I am entertaining to listen to. I feel sorry for my baby(christie) though, cause shes had to put up with it for a long time. But I have a message, not political, not religious, although I have strong thoughts on these topics. There are bigger problems in this world. Christie gets mad at me cause I don't want to watch Motnell Willams with her, michelle and tyson. I'd rather stay up later than christie cause we're worried about the new roommates hearing us have sex.
Any many more problems with everyone I know. I think differently. I think? People can't take realitly so they focus on things that are no business of there's. Having someone to run our country shouldn't be a hard decision, people shouldn't care 'which of these 3 guys is Shelley's babys daddy.' I'm gettin off my point. Maybe more on this later.


I feel better than ever. And have found myself emotionally vulnerable this last week. But in a good way. The right song will bring me to tears of joy. A picture of me and christie, my parents, my nephews, any memory from when life was good back in the day will just make me feel so good.
It's because I can do it again. I see a point in life again. I've decided to just not talk about the last 3 years at all. I WANT to forget them. They are over.
I forgot so much. What its like to just sit around and talk to people at a bar or a party. What it's like to spend a day shopping. What it's like to not wonder when the cop is coming to your door here randomly in the next three days. A lot of people fail house arrest.

My life is driven by goals. Day to day goals and life goals. I have to be accomplishing something. Eagle Scout, Team Captain, Drug Dealer, all things that I just had to have.
My last goal, graduate college. The last three years have thrown off my goals. I just wanted to be free.
BUT. They are both here. I'm free, I'm graduating.
In 4 hours I will have my diploma, and I have just began to feel free again about 5 days ago. And it's beautiful. It's all I could ever want. It was so hard.

AND. SOMEHOW. Like always, I came out on top. I Have a beautiful relationship with the only peron in this world that is really meant for me. I think that after everything I've put them threw, my family is really proud of me again, and, I still have all the friends I've really ever loved from before the arrest. except one, so.

And thats all can really ever ask for. It's a lot, but even a 'lone ranger' like myself needs these basic's.
And I have them all. The diploma and the engagement were my last goals. And they are both here. I never fixed anything for them. I just work towards them, and they are all here.
What am I to do now? Money is the only concern now, and I've never had to be concerned about it. I love to work, work=money, so thats not even a goal, just a trait.

So, my struggle latley is in the "so excited I'm scared catagory."
What is to become of ME?

posted by John @ 3:19 AM

 
I don't like breaks. That just means that one of the two things that Im allowed to do outside of this apartment are taken away from me. I had planned to sleep in till around 2 or 3 but that didn't happen. So, I stayed up till about 4 and only slept till 11. I guess that isn't that bad.
I cut my hair. Actually I let Christie cut it "a little" Saturday night, it wasn't that bad but I resembled Jim Carey in "Dumb and dumber" a little, so her dad came over Sunday afternoon and cut it all off.
It had to happen sooner or later. I was getting very sick of it poking me in the eye and being in my ears. I must not be a long haired kinda guy.
My sister has a stray cat that lives in her garage and it had kittens. So we are getting 2 kittens soon. They're only about 3 weeks old, but everyday I have to tell Christie that we can't go take them from there mother. She chooses not to listen.
I'm glad that its getting colder finally. Eventhough its supposed to be back in the 70's later this week. I wish that it would hurry up and just stay cold cause the change in weather fucks up my hands real bad. Luckily, most of the peelable skin has come off my fingers and about half of my hands are gone. What a nasty thing that is. I can sit for hours and just peel skin off my hands. I almost made my manager Randy sick.
Im also glad that my DVD buying binge is over. I bought 26 DVDs last month. The only one that I really wanted was "Scarface" I ordered it a total of 4 times, but apparently it is a hard DVD to come by. So in between trying to get it I bought 25 more DVD's. But it is finally here so I can quit buying them. Plus, Christie told me that Im not allowed to buy any DVD's this month due to cat expense projected for the end of the month.
My birthday is coming up soon, I'll be 22. It's on the 19th of October. I don't really want anything. There are only 3 things that I could think of. One is unusable due to the size of my apartment. I'm guessin that Im already getting the next one. And the last one, a sub for the "home theater" system cost to much for anyone to buy it for me.
I need to quit spending all my money. Once this TV is payed off I think I'll start saving more. Since thats the smart thing to do in such hard economic times. Ha.
Plus, Christie and I plan on living exstravigantly in our 4 days in Miami coming this March. And since we have proven that every time we go anywhere together where there are things to buy, we spent about an average of 1000 dollars, Im guess we'll need about 5 grand for the both of us on our 8 day florida vacation.
Sadly enough I am not joking. Although 5 grand is a doubtful spending budget, I know we'll get close. hopefully.
What am I talking about. 5 grand is WAY to much. Me or her better strike it rich or we'll be bankrupt by the time that I'm 25.
Tootsie rolls are really good.

Give me a moment.

Aww fuck it. Maybe ill write about it later.


posted by John @ 12:39 PM

 
The first day of classes went pretty good today. Nothin seems to hard so far. I have a speech class and a production cost analysis class and the normal OLS class that seems to be the same as at least 4 others I've taken and the last one is a class about how to start your own business. And theres 2 more tomorrow.
My car decided to wait till this weekend to fuck up. It had all summer to die, but it waited to the moment that I didn't have any time to get it fixed. So Im gonna have to figure that out.
Hm... thats about all. I've seemed to of acquired a large amount of small spiders. They have little webs all over the place.
Hm... Im peeling a bunch from getting sunburned 2 weeks ago. I spent a good deal of time peeling skin off my arms today. Bet that was attractive. But who cares?
Yea, thats about it.

posted by John @ 7:37 PM

 
It's 3:40 a.m. and I'm not even close to tired. So I am gonna jus stay up and skip the sleep thing.
For the last 2 weeks I've been tryin to get my sisters garage painted. I thought that it would only take me 3 or 4 days put it has stretched to almost 10 days. Scraping and painting a garage is harder than I'd thought it'd be. But I am determined to get it done tomorrow before 12 o'clock. So, I will just stay up and go over there around 6 a.m. which is only in 2 hours, so I think I'll be alright.
Yea, so, something strange just happend. I have to go buy more paint tomorrow so I thought I'd call Menards to see if they had an answering machine thing that said when it opened. So I call at about 3 a.m. and someone answers the phone. Apparently Menards has all-night security. I was so freaked out about this that I just hung up.
What else, I have a new Servailance Officer. Apparently my old one Chad had enough. Which is sad cause I liked Chad. But anyway, the new guys name is Kenney. He seems alright, I think he's knew. So we will see.
That job has to suck. I don't know what all a Servailance officer has to do, but the idea that your job intales dropping by about 15 peoples house randomly through-out the week at night to have them sign a piece of paper has to suck. No wonder Chad quit. Its kinda like being a parent to a bunch of people that you don't live with. Plus, Chad said it didn't pay very well at all, so... who knows.
Well, all the punkass students are back. I had said all summer that I couldn't wait for school to start back up but now I hope it wasn't. These last 2 weeks have been fine for me. I'd rather just work 10-12 hours a day.
But this is my last year. So I want to get it over with.
I've think this house arrest thing has just caused me to be blah. And to be edgy. But you've heard all this.
The only thing that I don't like is what it does to me and Christie. It has to suck from her side that the only time she sees me is when Im sittin here or when im working. And it sucks for me cause, well Im on house arrest and missing out on the stuff couples do. So, pretty much this house arrest is causing us to have a messed up relationship sort of. Well, its hard to explain but Im sure you understand. But we still have fun together so thats good.
Everyone always talks about how they can't wait till I get off house arrest cause I'll get to go out and that Christie is just gonna have to live with not seeing me for about a month after I get off. But the only thing Im looking forward to is gettin to do stuff with her outside of this house. Stuff like goIN TO FLORIDA. HAHAhahaha!
Okay, these days I don't like much rap music. Today most rappers just talk about cars, money and girls. This is why Im excited about these Clipse guys. Their song 'Grindin' is sweet. Their CD comes out the 20th, and you can bet that Im gonna go get it. If half the songs on it are as good as that one i'll be pleased.
What the freak. Christie left half a glass of chocolate milk in the fridge. Thats so ghetto, like its gonna be any good later. But oh well. Oh yea, today Christie and I went shopping. I said that I only had five dollars and that I wasn't using my debit card and that she had to pay for anything over five dollars. And amazingly we only spent like 35 bucks, compared to our usual 75-100 bucks when Im payin. Hmmmm, weird how that works out. HA!
This is freakin amazin. 4 am and Im wide awake. I'll be draggin though tonight about 7 or 8 when Im at Pizza King. But Ill deal with that when it comes around.
My movies that I ordered aren't here yet and Im pissed cause I can't order anything else till they get here and I've found a bunch of stuff that i want.
Maybe I'll call Menards back and see if the Security guy wants to chat.

posted by John @ 2:16 AM